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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 11:37

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She loved him until the end.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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I was seconnd youngest,

(And it was in our own minds.)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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He knew the spot.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Why do I feel like something bad is going to happen to me?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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So whats the point in blame.

This is soul school!.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I said to her

Was to survive, this bastard.

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Put me off passion for life!!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

It was going to be , some day.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Ive learnt so much.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Im still living with it.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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Would this be the day?

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I was scared of men, in general

I never cut or harmed myself..

My family never makes their pension either.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Why did i forgive my father ?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She wouldn,t have been !

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

What did i know ?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But, we were locked up after school.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

All the time i was locked up.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Especially a lifetime of it.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I was very sick at this time too.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I think the readers, may guess!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He resisted the act ,that day.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I write beautiful poetry .

When she asked me how she looked .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Who then, do I blame.?

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As i do to all so called friends.?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But it wasn’t much.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

We all went to grammer schools

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

One cannot live in the past .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She was in good health!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I have no regrets .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She found it foreign!.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

So, i spoilt her more .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

My life is so biszare .

I was 9 years of age.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She married twice! .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But ive been too sick for many years..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I waited trembling.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I don,t even have a pension.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

We were not on the streets..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And i lived it daily.

I will be 64.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Comes on , in middle age.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?