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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 01:35

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

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He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I couldn’t, believe it.

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Why do some men want to remain single despite the fact that many women want to have a romantic relationship with them?

(And it was in our own minds.)

And i lived it daily.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

How do I get access to a dog for bestiality? I am currently unable to adopt a dog, but I want to know if there are still ways to have sex with one without getting caught.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

This is soul school!.

She married twice! .

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Put me off passion for life!!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I have no regrets .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But ive been too sick for many years..

It was going to be , some day.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I was scared of men, in general

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

We were not on the streets..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I waited trembling.

I said to her

She was in good health!

Im still living with it.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He knew the spot.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was seconnd youngest,

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I don,t even have a pension.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Would this be the day?

I will be 64.

I think the readers, may guess!

She found it foreign!.

Why did i forgive my father ?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

All the time i was locked up.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He resisted the act ,that day.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

My life is so biszare .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I was very sick at this time too.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

What did i know ?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We all went to grammer schools

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

So whats the point in blame.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I was 9 years of age.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Ive learnt so much.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But, we were locked up after school.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My family never makes their pension either.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But it wasn’t much.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

So, i spoilt her more .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Who then, do I blame.?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She wouldn,t have been !

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I write beautiful poetry .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I never cut or harmed myself..

One cannot live in the past .

As i do to all so called friends.?

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Comes on , in middle age.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

She loved him until the end.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

When she asked me how she looked .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..